#please accept my hugs

[loregoddess]

hi, have a silly thing that I was possessed to suddenly make, don't take it too seriously

[umbrx]

Number six is my number.

Today, November 6th, I went to take a written exam and have an interview for a position as a researcher on a project at my uni. I received the results and scored a whooping 95/100 points, making me the top candidate they will take on the project. I had a good feeling in the morning regarding it, and an even better after it was all done. This is why I was gone for a long time, to finish my Master thesis, defend it, finish my last exams and apply and prepare for this job.

Hard work paid off, and I will likely start working this December. I will get the opportunity to enjoy a book fair next week, treat myself and write some too.

December 6th, though, is another wonderful date as Wind and Truth gets published. Moral of the story, 6 is my number. 666 is Doffy's. Hope to spend more time here now that I can finally breathe again.

[oliveth3b0rrower]

Happy (belated) Hug a Giant Day!!😅

I missed Hug a Giant Day.. I was taking a break from electronics, so that I could get some well needed rest, and I ended up missing it.

So, I ended up working hard to make up for it. Here’s my Hug a Giant Day art☺️.

@penaltyfox. ⬆��

@smol-lucy ⬆️

@kbthebearcat ⬆️

@pink-gt ⬆️

[tetzoro]

the kitty cat & his queen 🐈

OH MY GOD ?! YING. YING.

i am giggling and kicking my feet right now at my desk you have NOOO IDEAAAA !!!!!!!! his little hair !! our little faces !!! ying im gonna tear up. thank you so much for this, it’s such a lovely and heartwarming surprise 🥺

[miyamoratsumuu]

non chalantly accidently drops this in ur inbox

I'm absolutely not nonchalant about this ahahahshjajakzbajaba

OH MY GODDJWBDJBAHABAJSBQ???!?@[×&>-^×> SAKU WHAT THE FUCJCDBSKA I HAD TO DO A DOUBLE TAKE BC I DIDN'T NOTICE THAT WAS MY NAME IN THERE AND I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST A RANDOM FANART BUT OHHHH MYYYYDHWHXJWNKZ

AND IS THAT AN F ON THE LEFT OF HIS JORTS??? AAAAAAAGHHH SAKUUUU ☹️ I LOVE YOUUU SO MUCHHHH

I'M CRYING SCREAMING THROWING UP /pos STOPPPSJSJWN SAKU I LOVE THIS SM AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH:( HOW COULD I EVER REPAY YOU FOR THIS????

I CAN'T SHUT UP I'M LITERALLY BEING SO NOISY RIGHT NOWWJSBQNANKA HE LOOKS SO GOODDFJSBDJA YOUR ART STYLE'S SO CUTEEEUDHEJS I'M TEARING UP RN NO JOKE AAAAAAGH 😞😞 I WANNA GIVE YOU THE BIGGEST MOST INTENTIONAL SMOOCH RN

SHITDJHS I JUST NOTICED THE F ON HIS NECKLACE TOOOOO ☹️ AND THAT ACTUALLY IS AN F ON HIS SHORTS RIGHT??? or am I starting to hallucinate omg I feel lightheaded

HOW COULD YOU JUST RANDOMLY DROP THIS BOMB ON ME AT 5 IN THE AFTERNOON????? THANK YOUUUU SM FOR THISSSS<3 :( I genuinely hope, pray, and wish that you live the best life ever oh my gosh ilysm you deserve it

[calicos-clones]

Love angsty men with little to no self esteem who go through the emotional journey of finding themselves and their family through trials, tribulations, and cuddles.

…said none of the Bad Batch directors ever as they continue to fuck up all the hard work my therapist has done.

[feniverse-unfiltered]

yknow there's a lot of talk around these vash expressions in episode 12 (and rightfully so)

but can we talk about this one

it's right before the last one and it's making my heart hurt

[lakeofsilverpike]

Rewatching the first three episodes. Today I am struck by the scene in 2x01 with Lan and Tomas. I have some angsty thoughts to share:

Lan says, “She wants me to leave.” I want to suggest that perhaps before Moiraine started trying to push Lan away by saying cruel things and ignoring him, she may have actually had a conversation in which she explained that she wants him to leave to protect him. He said no, and after a few more iterations of that conversation, Moiraine acknowledged to herself what she always knew, that asking wouldn’t work. That she would have to be so cruel as to drive Lan away from her.

It just makes my heart break more for her. Moiraine who maybe gave it a go with words, hoping she and Lan could part with their relationship intact, with words of love, and without Lan thinking she hates him. But Lan of course refused to leave and so Moiraine felt she had no choice but to push him away to try to save his life.

Lan tells Tomas that Lan needed the bond to tell him when “[Moiraine’s] tired, she’s hungry, she’s angry, she’s afraid.” It’s interesting to me that Moiraine can obviously still read Lan perfectly. Each jab and insult and attempt to push him away reflects her absolute understanding of him and what he’s feeling.

Lan tells Tomas that he is almost as stubborn as Moiraine. It’s like Lan knows he’s going to give in already, can feel that he’s let Moiraine wear him down. I’ve struggled with fully grasping why Lan is having trouble reading Moiraine here. I understand fully that he is hurt by her actions. I even understand why he might leave. But understanding why she was acting as she was - that seems to obvious. Lan, should be able to understand easily, should know that of course Moiraine does not believe he is beneath her or that he failed her. Just knowing Moiraine for twenty years, he should know. Looking at her face, her ridiculously expressive and open face as she speaks of meeting him. Lan should know her feelings for him and why she is acting as she is. There should be no doubt.

I think I’ve settled on a reading of Lan that he would normally be able to read Moiraine perfectly well without the bond, but he is so consumed by his own feelings of failure and guilt that he is unable to focus on Moiraine and her feelings and motivations fully. He feels he failed Moiraine. He gave in to his wish for a night of pleasure and that choice allowed Moiraine a chance to mask the bond when he would think that normal. Lan cannot get through to Moiraine. He cannot get her to talk to him. He cannot help ease her pain. He cannot give her back what she lost. And he takes this as his failure and focuses on himself and how he’s failed.

When Verin and Tomas at dinner encourage Lan to just sit with Moiraine and support her, this is what they are seeing. Lan’s guilt, while focused on Moiraine and his desire to help her, actually obscures him to what she is actually feeling and what she needs. He focuses on himself, what he’s done wrong, how he’s fails her, what Moiraine’s actions mean about him. And he struggles to see what her actions mean about her, her deep love for him, her willingness to sacrifice his love and support if it means Lan will live. Moiraine is simultaneously trying to cope with a tremendous loss and trying to push away Lan to save him. And I don’t think he fully sees this or understands it.

Sitting with Moiraine in silence may not have gotten Moiraine to be less determined to push Lan away as she believes it’s the only way to save his life. It may not have made her talk to Lan. But Lan sitting there and thinking about Moiraine, being open to seeing Moiraine, really seeing her as Lan has for twenty years, may have allowed him to understand Moiraine’s motivations. But I think he was too focused on what Moiraine’s pain and loss meant about Lan and who he is and his perceived failures. And ultimately that is what keeps him from understanding Moiraine in this moment and why she is doing what she is.

This is not a Lan blaming post. He’s doing his best. And Moiraine does know him incredibly well and can read him perfectly and so she hurts him with perfect precision. But man does she need a hug. Because Adeleas is right when she says Lan is taking things too personally. He blames himself for Moiraine being hurt because the loss of the bond impacts him and his feelings about his role in life, he is unable to truly see Moiraine. A woman who is coping with a life altering loss and also trying to save Lan and in doing so denying herself any support. Someone go hug Moiraine!

[purple-babygirl]

Just read the 5th part of don't call me daddy...i can just imagine one day Steve and bucky hanging out and doll suddenly blurting out "daddy? Can u tell me the story of small idiot Steve, again?

Oh my😂😂😂

I can see Steve looking at Bucky like "excuse me?!" and Bucky just smacking a hand on Doll's mouth like "I have no idea where she got that from" and she's like trying to talk through his hand "from you, daddy. When small idiot steve got his butt kicked-"

Yeah, you made me laugh so hard I teared up:"💜💜 God, i love you

I hope your whole week is amazing because you just made my day, nonnie💜💜💜💜💜

[nyarlathotep-thecrawlingchaos]

Hiii I'm so happy to see your notifications popping up again!! I missed you so! I hope you are doing better!! 🫂🫂🫂🫂

Omg HIIIII FRAND!!!!

I won't say I'm doing phenomenal, but definitely far better than I have been in a while.

And I missed being here.

But I'm basically the human equivalent of a clam and will snap my shell shut at the slightest bit of distress and disappear in a poof of sand.

I can't promise that I'll be super-active for a long time, but I'm very happy to be back for now.

[varjopeura]

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[reinamycloud]

I just needed to tell you I’ve been binging all of your HA! Fics and by GOD my childhood ship is real and you dear author have made it so. God it’s all soooo so so good. The way you write Helga as soft but so strong and Arnold as so whipped but still honest about how to two of them clash it’s everything. They’re both so down bad for each other and it’s such a fuckinf pleasure to read. More then just characterization the pure SKILL of the writing is everything. It’s so captivating. Your way with words is something to be not only admired and held to high acclaim but something to study— I wanna pick it apart and just eat it. It’s so good. God. Everything is so so good. From one writer to another I just had to let u know. Love the work, keep writing ❤️❤️❤️

First of all, let me apologize for responding to this so late. 🙏

I don't even have words right now, seriously. Your message made my freaking year, okay. I'm not even joking. I want to bury it inside me and let it live there forever like a benevolent tapeworm. I seriously needed this and I can't thank you enough for it.

You're a beautiful person and I wish only the best things for you in life. May your creative juices flow eternally, and your pillow always be cool, and a mosquito never bite you again.

Thank you so much.

[the-heaminator]

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[themoriartyholmes]

'Haven't I Given Enough?' — Yet They Have; A Rant on Merlin of Ealdor and Sherlock Holmes.

Warning: Spoilers ahead!

Currently listening to Gilded Lily by Cults and whenever the lines 'Haven't I given enough? Haven't I given enough?' were repeated, I kept thinking of Sherlock and Merlin.

Sherlock and Merlin; the two of them have given nearly everything they had for the ones they've loved and cherished yet they've suffered so damn much in silence for those sacrifices.

The two of them were also, in my opinion, considered anti-heroes. They meant well (each one of them truly did and tried their very best in remedying their personalised trauma and achieving their own set of goals; whether that be through legal, illegal means or both.)

For example, Merlin.

Merlin had lost so much in his life for Arthur's sake as well as the golden age of Albion with nearly no help and what did he get in the end?

He had to wait for Arthur's awakening all by himself for centuries — uncertain whether Arthur would wake up or not.

He had to live through his friends' deaths, the fall of Camelot, the various evolution of societies and raging wars whilst waiting for Arthur.

Before that, he had to face all sorts of obstacles all by his lonesome self, rarely with anyone to tell of it, to get advice or Hell, even a few hugs and words of encouragement.

Sure, he had Gauis and Kilgharrah but Merlin didn't have anyone his age to talk of it all. They all died one by one and mostly he had to bury them alone. He didn't have a place to freely practice his magic without the fear of judgement or death dangling on his neck. Not to mention, certain times, the two people he could count on either didn't help that much or gave unwisely advice that eventually tore Merlin apart — situation wise, physical wise or even emotional wise.

He had done and given everything he could for Arthur's sake and happiness even though his own was always put behind. He had killed, defied his own kind even though at certain times, he didn't want to or he knew they had the absolute right to be enraged.

Still, he kept pretending to be a fool, doing the dirty work in the shadows without getting any recognition — he didn't want any.

Merlin had been through various dangerous situations and some had even nearly died in them yet he still protected Arthur with all his might and magic.

Why?

Love.

Because he loved Arthur so much — whichever way people could see it (platonically, romantically or somewhere in between) but no one could deny that the love was there.

As for Sherlock ...

Sherlock had literally lost two years of his life, years of his hard work invalidated by being called a fraud as he was tearing down an infamous criminal network all by himself without telling the people he had done it for. When he wanted to explain himself, he was thrown with the whole conundrum of emotions; which he had specified earlier on that it wasn't his forte.

He could sympathize, could even feel protective over the ones he held near and dear but he didn't show it a lot. Most times, he kept his guard up, letting everyone around him perceive him as emotionless and heartless as they could whilst worrying himself to the ground silently when things didn't go his way.

Or when it all came out wrong and he lost people that meant so much to him.

He was so damn lost after returning, rarely counting on anyone and just tried his best to patch himself up all alone despite spiralling down regardless.

All the while, of course, Mary, Magnussen and eventually Eurus happened.

Again, another question would be why would he do such things for people when he had claimed himself as a high functioning sociopath?

Because he isn't one. It's a mere facade. Not to mention, he loved John, Molly, Greg, Mrs. Hudson and Mycroft (even if they seem like enemies - that's not true) dearly.

In conclusion, the two of them had given more than enough for their loved ones. The saddest thing however is that no one told them that by each sacrifice, a part of themselves would be lost. The more they sacrificed for the people they cared for, the more they lost themselves until what was left was a tired shell of themselves.

That and the fact that both of them seemed to believe the people around them wouldn't give a damn if something were to happen to them, as if their lives were worth little next to nothing is just ... Dear Lord.

They both need a ton of hugs and love — seriously. (Oh, and definitely therapy too.)

[todayisafridaynight]

'im gonna sleep' he lied

[thedeerman]

just did my silly lil autism stim so hard i almost hurt myself lmao, you really can’t say that to me and expect me not to DIE 😭😭😭 i have a VERY hard time believing that i genuinely belong in the same post as The Fandom Greats but i’m gonna keep trying to earn my place there!!! thank you for enjoying my writing so much 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️

crazy how fanfic authors drop the most beautiful and gorgeous pieces of work ever, leaving you speechless and sobbing at three in the morning as you quietly contemplate the masterpiece you just read

and they don’t get paid for it they just do it because they’re having fun and they want to share their joy with you

like I would literally die for all of you fanfic authors out there reblog to swear your allegiance to fanfic authors